Sometimes lying still and being OK with your thoughts, is empowerment. Empowerment is releasing the coulda, shoulda, wouldas, and accepting what's out of your control. Empowerment is getting out of bed when the depression and anxiety tries to paralyze you. Empowerment is eating without guilt or emotion. Empowerment is saying YES to yourself, and NO to the demands of others. Empowerment is asking for help when you need it. Empowerment is looking in the mirror and saying,"I will do my best today.
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Have you ever felt like you're working SO HARD, yet going NOWHERE? I knew that if I didn't make a change, in my mindset, in my daily actions, in the way I did business, and the way I engaged with my family, I was headed towards burn out, divorce, and re-bound weight gain. I was headed back to where I worked so hard to get out of. So December 30, 2016, Last year on my birthday, I put the pen to paper and answered these 3 questions..
Some days get the best of me. So I make mountains out of molehills. Or my temper fires inside, especially when we don't hit deadlines or technology doesn't cooperate. But the first step to any change is not running away. Facing our quirks, and hot buttons, and emotions.
And now here we are, the night before your first day of school. And Mamma finds herself again, crying happy tears and having lots of "feels." You may not know what "feels" means. It's kinda like when you first went down a slide at the playground, Or when you give Cesar, the cat, wayyyyyy to many treats, Or even when YOU-- kiss Mommy and Daddy's bo bo's, My kind and sweet boy.
A broken mind and heart housed in a fit body leads to a life of emptiness. I started to think about the three roles that I've played in my past. Three roles that maybe we've all played, when life gets the best of us.
FEELINGS. They are a bitch sometimes. They don't go away, No matter how hard you try to push them away, drink them away, busy yourself and work them away- they just don't. And for 20 years, I've been trying to do all of that. In my moment, the lowest of the low, when I thought that one action could take the pain away, And my family, friends, clients could have a better mom, wife, trainer, friend, one they deserved, I realized something.
I recently caught a glimpse of myself in new camera light as I was filming online videos with a professional. And what I saw shocked me. Lines around my eyes, forehead creases, frown lines. Roads of expressions mapped out on my face. Where I've been, emotions I've experienced. Love. Loss. Anger. Freedom.